Tuesday, January 11, 2011

My New Adventure

I have never done a blog before, but after thinking about it, I thought it would be a great idea to start posting my thoughts on my new adventure. A about a week before Christmas I found out some news that would change my life. I found out that I was pregnant. I'm not going to lie; the first feeling that came through my mind was disappointment. I was completely disappointed in myself and I had nothing but negative feelings. I am 24 and not married. This was not what I had planned for myself. I felt that I had been a disappointment to my parents and family. This was not what I had planned for myself. Then I spoke with a family member who reminded me that God was probably laughing at me. Have you ever heard "If you want to make God laugh then tell him the plans for your life." I was planning my life and needed to realize that God had already planned it for me. I then spoke with a priest about my news and he told me that I can look at it in two different ways. I can either feel as if it was a burden and feel sorry for myself or I can think of it as a challenge and a blessing. He reminded me that God chooses different women and puts trust in them to raise his children. He puts trust in them to cloth them, feed them, love them, and raise them up in faith, so that when it's time God will have them back home. We, as child of God have to remember that God never puts anything in front of our face that he doesn't think we can't handle. This reminds me of a quote that Mother Teresa stated, "I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish that He didn't trust me so much."

After I told a friend/co-worker, she sent me an e-mail that blessed my day. She sent me some words from Our Lady of Guadalupe.
"Hear and let it penetrate your heart, my dear. 
Let nothing discourage you, nothing depress you, 
Let nothing alter your heart or your countenance. 
Do not fear any illness or vexation, anxiety, or pain. 
Am I not here, your Mother? 
Are you not under my shadow and protection? 
Am I not your fountain of life? 
Are you not in the folds of my mantle, 
In the crossing of my arms? 
Is there anything else that you need?"

My friend wanted me to be consoled by the words of Our Lady and did it help.  For this Women was 14 when she found out she was pregnant with the biggest blessing of all.  She was able to hold Our Lord Jesus Christ.  I can only pray to her to ask her to pray for me.  I ask that God will guide me in the steps of his Mother.

So now after a couple of weeks of soaking in the news I have decided to think of this as a challenge and a blessing.  I do know that God will be right by my side holding my hand because through Him all things are possible!  I believe that I am going to be an amazing mother because I was raised by one!

I will continue to write my blogs on my new adventure.  Tomorrow I will be going to the doctor for the first time so I ask that you keep me in your prayers.  I ask that God will continue to give me strength and mold me into an amazing mother of faith.  

I thought I would end this with one of my favorite prayers! 

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.